Another fallen Pin up girl. by leanscribbles, literature
Literature
Another fallen Pin up girl.
Sometimes I think of you together.
Jealousy settles in it's course
Then I remember...
Me and her we're a like..
That round style face
The Dark hair..
The quirky interests..
The fact that she is now
What I used to be ..
And what was I ?
A pin up girl for your wall
Slightly torn-
Bent around the edges
With only time to wear me down..
Getting my stuff out. by leanscribbles, literature
Literature
Getting my stuff out.
The pale sky stretches out before me
Rain pings off the ground around me
As if the weather could tell me the outcome of the day
My cheeks sting as the rain strengthens
I barrel my fists into my pockets
All too soon the apartment looms infront of me
Pain and fear aches my chest.
Will she be there?
And then the world spins
My heart rushes up
Attempting to throw it's very self at the door
But I can't move.
I sink slowly and the ground runs to meet me.
Who am I now ?
Woman condemned by love
Never to trust again
Alienated forgotten distrustful
ungloved.
Perhaps cryptic.
Embarking into an endless hunger
Starving for sustenance
Stripped of all that was loved
Even oneself.
Because in the end it's all a story
it doesn't have to be a good one
Because I believed and made true all the lies
Sweat insomnia and tears by leanscribbles, literature
Literature
Sweat insomnia and tears
Bolt upright,
sweat pumps down,
The covers tight-en
Sixth time tonight.
How long until it kicks in
These dreams are not
My dreams once ag-ain
This beds so big and im so thin
Eye's lull, sleep takes hold
Hostage to cupids chokehold again
Shakes me rips me and leaves me
where my inner most nightmares un-fold
Sweat and tears saga. by leanscribbles, literature
Literature
Sweat and tears saga.
How will I ever know now ,
The times when you were home,
Where were you with your mischief,
Were you actually alone.
And what about the bed-sheets,
Who else had you there,
You claim you never brought her,
Yet still I found her hair.
Now what about the happy times,
When we walked hand in hand,
Do I try to forget them?
Where the f*ck do I stand.
Can't comprehend what day it is...
Don't know what is the time
Only know to eat just enough to survive.....
The mirror talks shit
The scales weigh me down
I don't know where to go from here..
Stand in the mirror
Glare at it. Stare.
One hour of Workout
Still so much fat there.
Open the fridge
It's all just the same
Calories sugars saturated fats
I'm loosing the game.
I want to be skinny
It's all I think of morning until late
Catch site of my reflection in the college doors
See the fat that I hate.
Don the baggy jumper.
I don't like you and your skinny j-genes by leanscribbles, literature
Literature
I don't like you and your skinny j-genes
Everything's changed
Nothing is as before
I just
Don't recognize
Can't accept
Don't want to be
Who I am anymore.
Glass fattens
Shadows lie.
Mirrors, Cameras,
They all try
Repress me
Depress me
Force me to cry.